My Prison Within
This blog/poem comes from Angey, who should be released in September of this year.
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With my walls built up high, tough as nails so no one
Could get in, my heart bruised and broken, I walked
Into prison, angry and hurt sentenced to 90 months. Yet
I am held captive only by my prison within.
All the scummy motels and the things I had done, the
More I hated myself and could no longer find any beauty within
The longer I stayed gone, the deeper the hurt buried
Itself within me.
The more I did drugs to numb the pain, the harder my
Heart shattered leaving no feeling within. For everyone
I strived for and proved my loyalty to, the more my faith
and beliefs I knew to be true slowly dissipated within me.
All the “homies” I seemed to have that I gave my
All to leaving me empty and alone with no respect left
For myself within. The ones I loved most praying I was
Alive and would find my way home, never losing faith fully
Believing in and forgiving me.
My walls now have a door and a window to see. Its
Not from this prison I sit in I long to be freed.
I have been forgiven by loved ones and I am slowly learning
How to forgive others from within me.
There is freedom in forgiveness and a joy no one can
Take that I hold within. If only I could believe
In my heart I deserve to be forgiven and free. Then
Freedom will be found deep within me.
By forgiving myself, then and only then from my prison
within, will I be free.
